Dear Family and Friends,
This past year has been the most life changing experience for me. I have found my purpose in life and I don’t know that I ever really knew what purpose meant – I mean what it really meant. I have taken several steps forward, not looking back unless it was going to help prepare for the huge steps forward that I was fixing to take.
I’m thankful for the purpose in life that God has shown me and the ability to put it into action. I remember praying and asking God why me – why did I choose to use drugs, I hated drugs and saw what it did to people I care a lot about. This is what he showed me – it can take over your life and ruin it in the blink of an eye. You can lose family members and never be able to go back. Through my use I was destroying the person that I was and quickly becoming someone that I didn’t like. I didn’t know how to love myself and therefore I hurt the ones I loved the most. But through using drugs and now being 14+ months clean and sober, I am a person with a PURPOSE. I love who I am, I pray to God without shame, I help others to get off drugs, and I live life to its fullest. You see the first 33 years of my life, before I ever tried a drug, I didn’t feel that I had a purpose. I was doing for others, helping others, hurting others without realizing it, feeling down on myself, low self-esteem, and feeling less than – well NOT ANY MORE. I’m grateful for my past and even more grateful that it has had a lesson to learn to be able to help God to help others with a cruel addiction that is overflowing our country. Never feel down on the people that have such addictions – they are good people with an illness. Just take the steps to help them – especially if they come to you and say they have a problem and they need the help. I used to dream of being a nurse like my grandmother and work at a nursing home. But God had a different plan for me – I’m working at a drug rehab – who would have ever thought – me? God did and my family and my daddy who knew exactly what recovering from addiction and helping others was all about.
I came to treatment to help get off meth. My clean date is Oct. 1, 2004, but I was having the cravings, I new that if I didn’t get help I would be back on meth fast. I had already gotten myself into legal trouble and I knew that if I was going to have any kind of chance at life – I needed help fast. My mother, daughter, aunt and uncle pulled together to get me to Narconon. The cost of legal issues and the cost of rehab didn’t come cheap but my family will tell you that it didn’t matter the cost if it gave me life – and boy did it! I graduated Narconon on Feb. 11, 2005 – my daughters 19th birthday – she said it was the best birthday present she could ever have – her mommy back. I came back full force, intention without reservation. I have repaired the damage with my family and friends and my legal issues by working my conditions. I have made a decision on which side of the fence I am on. I have worked on my fair exchange and abundance exchange with my family. I have my ethics in. I have worked hard to show by my actions that I have changed and I carried that on to the courts. Back on Sept. 2, 2005 – I went open before the judge on 4 felony counts. I had family and lots of friends by my side that day, the judge voted in my favor – no jail time is necessary – I got the minimum of 5 yrs probation, I report by mail and was granted the right to return to Narconon to train to become staff. I came back to Narconon on 9/26/2005 and in 5 weeks – I made staff. I am working in withdrawal – the first step in helping people come off drugs – drug free. WOW – it’s amazing the work I put into it and the results that come from it. I now realize that I had to take the steps I had to take to get where I am today and for that – I AM TRUELY GRATEFUL.
So thank you all for standing by me and praying for me – I promise to be the best me I can be and live the PURPOSE that God intended for me to live.
I have a three-year old daughter and I am a student and working a full time job. I made a mistake, which I thought wouldn’t be too hard to rectify, but I was wrong. I got a citation for a DWAI, for driving with a blood alcohol concentration of 0.04, which is less than a DUI’s 0.08, which is why I didn’t think that I would have too much trouble getting this behind me. Because I had my daughter with me in the car, I was also sited for child-endangerment. I have always put my daughter first and I didn’t feel that I couldn’t drive well, or I would have never driven.
When I was told that I had to have a alcohol and drug assessment or evaluation, I went to one of the programs that was on the list that the courts gave me. That should have been the right action, but it turned out to be a intake counselor and not an evaluator.
I called Mac at 888-781-7060 and explained my problem. He told me that he was semi-retired and that his credential were higher than others doing evaluations. He took time on the weekend to do my evaluation and it proved that I didn’t have an alcohol or drug addiction or abuse problem. He discounted my fee because he understood how hard it is to make ends meet as a young mother and student.
The evaluation was what I needed. It was thorough and comprehensive and I am now going on with my life without worrying about more complications.
I was born in 1968 in a small town. By the age of 7 I began to notice drug use in my family and actually began using alcohol and marijuana. When I turned 17 I was using drugs such as marijuana, cocaine and alcohol on a daily basis. I had become desperate and was using whatever drugs I could get my hands on.
In 1990 I moved to Miami, Florida at the height of the South Florida drug scene. I began smuggling drugs of all kinds into the country. Drugs like ecstasy, cocaine, marijuana, anything that I could get into the country and make money on. I had absolutely no concern for others or myself, which landed me in jail for the first time. I was arrested and convicted at age 22 for possession of 28 pounds of marijuana.
By 1993 at 25 years of age I began to use heroin and by the age of 28 I had lost everything that I had worked for. My mother found out about my addiction and tried to help me on her own to no avail. Within a year I was back on heroin and was actually arrested and convicted twice for possession of heroin. I was sent to jail for 9 months and was released in 2000. I actually did well for about a year after prison and did not use any drugs or alcohol. Then my drug use began to resurface. I was drinking regularly and had also begun to use marijuana and speed again.
In 2002 I decided to fully handle my drug addiction. My mother actually knew of a program in Oklahoma that had a very high success rate. I quickly hoped onto a plane and started the Narconon program. Within a couple of weeks I could tell that this program was going to make a huge impact on my life and that I would never have to use drugs or alcohol again. I graduated from the program in 4 months time and have never looked back since.
I had been told that I was drinking too much and after a fight with my wife and saying things that I regretted, I had my family drive me to an alcohol and drug rehab center about three hours from my home, with my wife and five children. Everyone in my extended family were supportive my decision. I had plenty of sick-leave from work to stay as long as it takes to handle my problem.
When I arrived at the center I felt that everything that I had been told wasn’t real and that I had been sold a treatment program in the same way you would expect to be sold a used car. I refussed to stay and with my family now worried and a bit angry, I needed something that would make sense to me and not just be sold on a facility.
I called rehab-drug.net help line and talk to Mac, who said that he was a licensed alcohol and drug counselor and that he had been in the field as a professional for over 30 years. As I told him my situation and the problems that I felt when I drove to the other treatment center. He assured me that my preceptions were real and that many rehab centers believe that they have use whatever tricks they can to break through the denial of the alcoholic or addict.
Mac did a telephone assessment of my alcohol use and recommended that I enroll in the Brief Intensive Therapy program. He felt that at the end of the three days I would either be able to continue gaining control of my problem or I would know, without doubts, that I needed to attend a longterm treatment program. He said that he was inclined to feel that I wasn’t at a level of need requiring residential treatment.
To make a long story short, I attended the BIT and even after the first few hours of training and therapy I was laughing wiht my kids for the first time in two weeks. M. and I spent three long days together and he left me with two workbooks to continue my study and introspection. This has been a wonderful experience and I can say that without the help that I received, I would have continued on a downword spiral that was going to leave me alone and divorced. I can’t guarantee that I will continue to be alcohol and drug free, but I can’t imagine ever getting to a place where I would feel that it is okay to sabotage my best interest and cave myself in. My insight and maturity is so much higher than I have ever had before.
Mac says that all he did was re-awaken the truth in me, but whatever the process was, I am thankful and wanted to share this with others.